Fed Up and Inspiration.

That's me. Fed Up.

Fed up with Trying. Fed up with Failing. Fed up with lying to myself about why I keep failing miserably to lose this weight.

I need to be honest with myself. I fail because I don't like change. Even change for the better. I've lost weight before and had bad things happen and that is exactly what is holding me back now.

But I'm fed up with this weight and being unhappy with myself even more at this point. i don't feel good and i look HIDEOUS!

I'm starting my new eating and ACTIVITY plan on Boxing Day but I'm starting to really crack down on my bad eating habits and shit activity levels starting today. I'm going to the in laws for Christmas Dinner so no point in starting  before after Christmas because ...well, if you knew my mother in law- you'd know why. I won't be celebrating anything except my husband's birthday until the end of February and I'm POSITIVE I can lose a stone and a  half by then (20-21 lbs).  I'm shooting for a 10 lb loss every month. That means by this time next year I will be able to rival my Bezzie in her Christmas Finery!!!

She has two stunning dresses for her celebrations this year and compared to her- I am a Huge LUMP!
Her Christmas Dress is red halter dress with a gold chain collared neck. Slit up the thigh and shows off her curves to perfection!!!!
Her New Years Dress is ice blue and that's all I know about it except it's backless.
She is going to be my mentor and is my inspiration.

So....let's do this thing in 2015.
Andddddddddd GO!!!!.........